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I am waiting for my big surgery. I am prepared. I am confident everything will be ok. I am learning all about ovarian cancer. I am blessed.  I am sure God is in control. I am smiling.

That does not mean that I do not have my moments! This week I have had MANY moments. They come and go. I decided to share some of these moments with you. I am not sure why. It is not about me. It is about helping others who may be feeling the exact same thing. It is for those who are afraid to say how they are feeling. It is for the friends and family of those in need. It is for you.

There are moments I want to lock the door, crawl in bed, and cry for hours! (This may have happened today)

There are moments I want to run out side and scream at the top of my lungs.

There are moments I want to talk about someone else’s problems and not my own.

There are moments I want to hear something so funny it makes me cry and have to pee!

There are moments I want to put today in a bottle to cherish forever.

There are moments I want to ask WHY?

There are moments I want a big hug!

There are moments I want a chocolate cookie and coffee with the whip cream and drizzle on top!

There are moments I want to tell people to stop with their advice and things I should or should not do.

There are moments I want advice.

There are moments I want to hit something.

There are moments I want to feel sorry for myself.

There are moments that I do not want to talk about or even think about things that don’t matter.

There are moments that I do not want to talk about or even think about things that do matter.

There are moments I just want to talk and have someone listen. Not fix it. Just listen and agree.

There are moments that I want to burst into tears, but can’t.

There are moments I hate the question, “How are you?”

There are moments I want to run far, far away!

There are moments I want to stay in bed and watch girly movies with popcorn and a Dr. Pepper.

There are moments I am really mad!

There are moments I pray for minutes or even hours.

There are moments I want to bury myself in work and projects.

There are moments that I want to be silent.

There are moments I have to remind myself to be positive.

Everyone has moments. It is OK to have moments! We must remember that. Facing cancer or any major life changing disease or event is scary. Very scary. Moments are unpredictable and hard to explain. Waiting is terrible. Surround yourself with people who are ok with your moments. They don’t understand but they support you. That is what we need more than anything. I am blessed and thank God each day to be able to have these moments and know he loves me anyway.

Heather Brummett

I am Heather Brummett . I'm just a real mom, sharing my real life experiences with the world. Thank you for being a part of my world. Here you will find recipes, crafts, fun ideas for the kids, how to work at home, encouragement, inspiration, and the latest news in and around Houston. To be featured or for information on freelance work contact me at [email protected].

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  1. So, what if I say, “s’up?” or “Whatcha doin’?” or “How you doin'” (and sound like Joey from friends)? Not the “how are you doing?” question? =) I could fly there and hug you. Fred said I could. Of course, we’d have to pray for you and over you. Fred would want to try to fix things, then he and I would argue about how you don’t need someone to fix you, that God can fix you, and then you’d have to mediate for us while we were arguing. That could take your mind off things for a day or so. It’s just a thought. Maybe not a helpful or timely one, but a thought nevertheless.

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