To be honest I really debated whether or not to post this. Then realized I am surely not the only on with these feelings. So here I go…. Boldly vulnerable!
When I see these pics I cringe. I see someone who is getting old. Who is depressed. Who is faking a smile. Who has a huge belly! I am totally overweight. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. I am searching for answers.
I love wings for what they represent because I feel broken right now. I am depressed and sick and tired.
But I have to believe that God sees something else. He sees someone begging for guidance, grace, healing, and hope. He sees someone that wants to fly away like these wings represent. He doesn’t see my huge body… he sees my huge heart. And he loves me and all of my brokenness and he will provide the desires of my heart.
I am sharing this so that you will know that you are not alone in whatever you are dealing with. I personally am dealing with the awful thing labeled as a long hauler or post COVID syndrome. I am broken and sick and tired. I am overwhelmed, overweight, and have no desire or energy to do anything. But hiding only makes it worse.
God loves the broken hearted and humble. So here it is. Me and all my brokenness. And it’s ok! If you are feeling the same please, please reach out to a friend, a church member, a family member, or simply go straight to God. I am here as well. Even if I do not know you—- I am here for you. You are not alone! Hold on friend! There is peace ahead! I believe it and you have to as well!